Tag: suicide attempt survivor

As Tears Go By

This song has been in my head recently…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SQjE4ekAPQ

“It is the evening of the day
I sit and watch the children play
Smiling faces I can see
But not for me
I sit and watch
As tears go by

My riches can’t buy everything
I want to hear the children sing
All I hear is the sound
Of rain falling on the ground
I sit and watch
As tears go by

It is the evening of the day
I sit and watch the children play
Doing things I used to do
They think are new
I sit and watch
As tears go by”

Lofty Goals Require Digging Deep Into Painful Memories

I have set some lofty goals for myself for this year and next. In order to get my goals achieved I will have to dig down and through some painful memories with Lena, Ava and some other people. I have to go back and read hundreds of social media posts by myself and these women whom I have loved more than my own life… I have to read hundreds of pages of saved text messages. This is going to hurt… worse than shooting myself in this chest, but it has to be done.

Came across these posts from Lena that she posted to Facebook and I just tear up and wonder what went wrong?